| i went to tenth presbyterian tonight and it was communion sunday. one thing communion reminds me of is that Christ has broken Himself for me. all my striving is not needed. when i feel like my heart is hard, i don't have the ability to make it softer. instead i come to Him and offer it to Him- He who died for me before i wanted to have anything to do with Him-He needs to come in to soften it...
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| it's been a while. partly b/c as part of my hw for my counseling class, i have to write 3 journal entries each week. partly b/c i'm trying to write for the snl blog and therefore been neglecting my own. i'm all blogged/journaled out.
but i have been thinking...
suffering
the past couple of months, i feel that i've been the victim of murphy's law. if something can go wrong it would. can't i get a break sometime? on top of that is the stress of the amount of work i have to do in a short amount of time. i have to say, it hasn't been pretty. recently all i do is vent and be negative. it would be nice if i could say my faith has not waivered. well, maybe i'm not cursing God, but i am more thinking He's indifferent or something. i can't say...
if i could only remember that suffering is for refinement. the fire is to get rid of the dross. maybe i forget there's really a lot of dross. in moments of quietness i can see the ugliness that needs to be rid of. the sin that i've come to love and settle in. the lack of trust that characterizes my life. the lie i have subscribed to that i am in control of my life.
i hope what doesn't kill me will really makes me stronger. and that i really would believe it will not kill me... |
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| in many moments in life, i'm presented with 2 choices- there's always the easy thing and then there's the right thing. the easy thing gives me momentary comfort, delays hardship for one more moment. the right thing however brings me just one step closer to where I ultimately want to be...
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| i thought i hit the jackpot when i found this (only 60 cal per serving)
little did i know they also made these (only 5 cal per serving!!)
the awesome thing is they TASTE great!
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